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semalam happy sangat bagi saye. saye tak bole lupe tuh. kite dah share macam-2 kan? saye dengar awak cerita. lepas tuh awak pulak dengar saye cerita. sweet sangat kot time tuh :) terime kasihh sebab jadi peneman setia hidup saye skarang nh. saye bahagie bile ade awak walaupun jarak memisahkan kite. saye taw awak cube sedaye upaye untuk jadi yang terbaik dalam hidup saye kann? saye pon cmtoe. tapi kadang-2 kesilapan saye slalu buat awak makan hati. sumpahh bukan saye sengaje buat tuh sume :( awakk, hari nh awak dah tinggalkan saye. kenape cepat sangat awak pegi? sunyi hidup saye bile awak tade. mane awak yang dulu? yang janji takkan tinggalkan saye? mane awak yang slalu bagi saye semangat? yang slalu ade untuk saye bile saye perlukan seseorang? mane awakkk? saye rindu..



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Sayup hilang
Rahsiaku selamanya
Untuk aku terus menyintai dirimu
Aku pendam
Jadi khazanah semalam
semoga engkau bahagia
Setelah aku melihat mu berubah
Tutur laku tiada menjaga hati
Apa lagi guna rahsia inikan ku persembahkan
Ku cuba pertahankan perasaanku
Namun kau terus menduga
Kesabaran ini
Dipersenda
Kiranya hujan turun membasahi diri mu
Itulah air mata dari hatiku
Menghitung hari-hari bersama
Namun aku dikecewa
Andainya ada bayu membelai wajahmu
Ia membawa kata pesan dariku
Aku kini dapat menerima perpisahan ini..

b a c k to d e c e m b e r :)

i'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier then ever.
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why.
Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.
So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you
saying I'm sorry for that night,
And I go back to December all the time.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.
These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving,
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized that I loved you in the fall.
Then the cold came, the dark days
when fear crept into my mind.
You gave me all your love
and all I gave you was goodbye.
So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you
saying I'm sorry for that night.
And I go back to December all the time.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind.
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile,
so good to me, so right,
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry.
Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right.
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand.
But this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you
saying I'm sorry for that night,
And I go back to December.
Turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright.
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind.
I go back to December all the time.
All the time


01 december 2010
iloveyouuabietilltheend

n o n s e n s e s ~♥

Ku susuri malam ini
Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi
Juga rembulan dah menghilang
Dalam kelam ku sendiri
Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu
Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu
Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi
Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu
Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini
Diiringi
Kisah janji
Dimungkiri
Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu
Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu
Beribu sesalanku



aku jiwang? haha memang dah. tapi tak sume orang taw lahh. hehe. in fact entah-2 boyfie sendiri ponn tak taw awek die macam nh LOL. hari nh aku na story telling pasal hati aku ♥

aku kan memang tak baik bukan yang terbaik buat die. yeaahh i knew bout it already. tapi manusia nh mesti na yang terbaik kan dalam hidup. macam tuh jugak aku. even aku slalu buat salah, slalu sakitkan hati boyfie aku tapi aku buat tuh sume untuk die. kadang-2 ape yang aku buat salah di mate die walaupun aku taw aku buat tuh untuk bahagie kan die ( ayat aku belit-2! ) kenape ehh jadi macam tuh. setiap detik aku fikir kenape salah aku slalu jadi punce. tipu lahh kalau tak sedih. aku ade perasaan jugak =.= tapi sumpah lahh aku bukan sengaje na buat camtuh. aku buat tuh sume semate-2 na buat die tak bosan ngan aku. entah lahh kan. kalau fikir jea tade penyelesaian tak gune jugak. arrggh blurr hee ><